Going back to my MA course was not an easy decision to make. But here I am , starting to work on my next project. This is for a Module called "Creative Practice" in the second semester which I didn't pass in 2023 during to my detoriating health.
So starting fresh or ...not quite... Things hasn't changed immensilty for the last past few months apart from starting a job as a freelance Remote Interpreter. But I'm still looking at the subject of relationships , trauma and feminism. Indeed, my past few months of trying to survive as a single cat mum on benefits and looking for a suitable job in area with one of the highest unemployment in the country let alone finding emplyment as an artist practioner, and supposidly recovering physically from a stubborn viral infection, fed into my subject matter.
In semester one of my MA course for the Literature Review Module, I familiaresd myself with "Political is Personal" by C. Harnisch ( 1969 ).
In semester one of the MA course in my Literature Review I familiarised myself with "Political is Personal". To be completely honest, I wasn't sure if I identify myself as a feminist but her work took me back to the roots of Women Liberation movement. I dare say, the feminist idea had been tainted over the years. Feminism is not about a gender war. Femisnim is not simply about regaining independence. First of all femisnim is about recognition of the historical conditioning of being a "woman". In that context, femism is about rectification. Undoing the wrong against women who have been held in supportive roles for a hundreds of years. Even if we presume they have all the citizen right a man has ( voting, working) women are not represented equally. They still depend on the very same system that has abused them in the past. That is why women themselves hold the responsibility of pushing change so the system responds to their needs and protect their rights.
But that again is quite exhausting. And comes a moment when a woman might feel lost. This is the time when she would shut down. Even if she doesn't isolate from the world physically, metally and emotionally she is not capable of reaching out. Nurturing a connection is imprinted in the woman blueprint and for that reason women experience "independence" different from men. And when a relatiionshoip fells apart, the woman might need more time to regain a control of her life.
This project I am doing for this module aims to show the process of a heartbreak. As I've written in my Brief " “train” is associated with travelling. But can we still feel stuck following the same route repeatedly? Moving on without quite having a grasp of what is next. In this context, the train is a symbol of a female life's journey; struggling to find safety, women often feel bound to trust a greater power pushing them forward".
The visual code of the train corresponds with the photography proejct "Dear Darling" I worked on in semseter one of my MA course for the module "Material and Processes.". Overall, I've been consistent with the choice of making an experimentory bodeis of work and also the preference of black and white tones. This is related to the psychological aspects of my work; a tendency which creeped its way out through my academic training as a photographer and eventually bloomed completely while doing my Masters.
The train, however has a personal meaning to me; and here is the moment to highlight "MOVESTUCK" hold a very personal element. And there comes the challenge of creating a body of work which is borrowed from intimate experience - curating your own emotoions in the process , yet again preserving the right proportion to keep you moving. This itself is a complex psychological process and by far the most challenging body of work I'll be doing and how I need to overcome myslef. The project explores how life is down to taking this next step no matter of our internal struggles, insecurities and the ghosts of the past.
More about the logostics of the filmmaking at this stage I am going to reveal in my next posts.